Previously, I was having a chat with my buddy and came across this issue about attention. Ppl most likely to befriend with those who let them feels good and someone who are like them. True enough to say so.

Wonder if is it because I am too realistic in which leads to the state whereby negative thoughts stays on and have no intention of leaving.

Since the day I broke down, I felt horrible and wishing for someone who would understand me and do something.Instead, everyone thinks that I exaggerated this issue. From now and then, I would ask myself "am I over reacting?"

Side track abit. This has been bothering me for ages. Not related to why I broke down.

So called old buddies- volunteered to listen to all my sorrows and trouble - thrown my trust away by sharing this forbidden secret to the main character. Someone whom I considered to be a nice person to talk to. May be that's just one of my self fulfilling prophecies. Some Said I'm stupid enough to said that to him as it involved his dream girl. Fair enough. I admit it's my mistake for believing that everyone are able to view this issue at my point of view instead of the listener (himself). Till now, I am still foolish enough to hope for someone to apologize.

Since when my trust was so cheap? Even if I shared some issues with someone, she don't even trust me. Worse, she even initiate that she wanna get involved in it to find out if it is as what I said. From there, she will be able to give a more realistic reply.

Wondering what's the problem with me now... :/