Just had a walk around NTUC. It made me realize that I love Xmas the most. Now, the choco, candy, present-like-cookies ... Are all sitting at the shelves! Really wish to hug everything home. Mix and match a huge bag for my cousins! Xmas is all abt sharing and giving. Now I have to start shopping for lovely dresses and top for Xmas meet up! Right now I have a simple dress but that's not enough!

Planning of getting 1-2 more. A new clothes for different meet up! Hehe. Just like a princess. Dreams*

May be shop around forever 21 someday. For accessories and something simple. Or may be PS! Anyway, I saw a high waist short online and wondering if I should place my order. The situation is that I am cash tight. may be should I get a nicer dress or top than a ordinary high waist short that I can't wear it to Xmas meet up. Am I right?

Keep a look out for new clothes!

Previously, I was having a chat with my buddy and came across this issue about attention. Ppl most likely to befriend with those who let them feels good and someone who are like them. True enough to say so.

Wonder if is it because I am too realistic in which leads to the state whereby negative thoughts stays on and have no intention of leaving.

Since the day I broke down, I felt horrible and wishing for someone who would understand me and do something.Instead, everyone thinks that I exaggerated this issue. From now and then, I would ask myself "am I over reacting?"

Side track abit. This has been bothering me for ages. Not related to why I broke down.

So called old buddies- volunteered to listen to all my sorrows and trouble - thrown my trust away by sharing this forbidden secret to the main character. Someone whom I considered to be a nice person to talk to. May be that's just one of my self fulfilling prophecies. Some Said I'm stupid enough to said that to him as it involved his dream girl. Fair enough. I admit it's my mistake for believing that everyone are able to view this issue at my point of view instead of the listener (himself). Till now, I am still foolish enough to hope for someone to apologize.

Since when my trust was so cheap? Even if I shared some issues with someone, she don't even trust me. Worse, she even initiate that she wanna get involved in it to find out if it is as what I said. From there, she will be able to give a more realistic reply.

Wondering what's the problem with me now... :/

Everyone have been suggesting that it's best to thrash things out. I did.

It doesn't seems to work at all. On the contrary, I am look upon as someone who get stressed up easily and will be reminded repeatedly to stay chill. The moment I chose to thrash out everything, I decided to let things go. Be it good or bad. I have already done my best.

My train of thoughts are all jammed up and confused. even if now, I couldn't organise myself to write a proper post. What do I really want. No one seems to be listening to me. No one believes me. I am so stressed up with my studies. guessed mostly negative thoughts.

pretty stress with studies. esp when first 2 years isn't satisfying enough. time is so short to revise everything. ;c

It's simply awful to know that a grp of ppl are plotting some disgusting plans to make me change my mind. In life, there's more than just bgr. Some may be able to accept such nonsense. Certainly, not going to happen to me. If it will, it will sparkle even from the slight communication.

Or I am just thinking too much or too gullible to take in words from one perspective and creating such a fuss.

the amazing part is that: No one knows why am i so pissed off with. ha!

gt to go back to studies again. bye