I'm scared.

The red spots are spreading gradually. It may turn out to be skin allergy. ;c Please go away.

In such a country that's summer throughout the year, I can't imagine myself wearing long sleeve or long pants. No way man. I hate to sweat ttM, can! :cccc

PLEASE GO AWAY!

Now i cant even go shopping. i want shopppping. even if i can shop i cant get any shorts or sleeveless top.

Extremely BORING day.

This weekend supposed to be FULL. awesome night out with my colleagues, chatty breakfast on a Saturday morning and a heart warming full month baby party to attend.

PLUS my aunt intend to have a trip to my house with my adorable cousins, yong en & yong she.

Everything has been reduced to nothing!

WHY?
I am sick. ;c Sore throat and red spots here and there. Wonder if it is fong mo or rashes. Just something itchy and spreading day by day basis.

May be it's because recently my weekend has been slotted with something. A sudden change in it make me feel so empty. Nothing noted in my calendar for this weekend. ;C irritating man. It's supposed to be full so as to combat the boring weekdays at work.

It Sunday tml. Don't think it's a great idea to crash the party despite my illness. Thinking of going to Chinatown for some strolling and visit my favourite stores. However, the idea of walking around under the sun is daunting me to move a step out of my building. How I wish I have a car and someone drive me there. C; I want some cakes from Kki, necessity from a wholesale store and may be some traditional tibits from one of the old stores.

It seems that bugs love me. ;C

Somehow I gt bite by the beach and ends up with lots of itchy red spots. Cant scratch it. Else there will be a scar forever.

And now my hand has lots of red spots. A few days back it subsided and now back again. Lots and lots of spots. PLUS super itchy. Cant scratch it. CANT!

Previously, I mentioned that I lost an important original copy of the document. My boss threatened that it must be found no matter what. If not, it has to be signed by one of the HR director again. This is kind of a nightmare to her if the DOC is missing.

1 damn week of search. Raped the entire cabinet - in total, 4 of them.

Then, she gave me 3 alternatives to resolve this HUGE problem.

1. act blur to double confirm the exact status of the doc - has it been submitted to my boss or still with the employee

2. ask for the other original copy from the employee

3. print the doc again and ask both the HR Director & employee to sign again.

Set! I approached the HRM with these 3 alternatives. No matter what, I am responsible for the lost.


Conclusion
The doc is still with the employee! My boss was 200% that she saw the damn paper and ends up not with her at all.

That entire week made me such a careless asshole. Lost of trust. Horrible man. I admit that I am forgetful, careless & clumsy. But I am able to differentiate the important of every doc. That's my job as an HR assistant.

From then on, I don't dare to keep any doc any further. Just file them immediately. WORST week ever.

Trust towards an individual is the fundamental element. If I ruin it, I will definitely fight my way through and regain the trust between us.

Not many understand it and choose to run away. Trust wouldn't build up between us out of no where. You have to FIGHT for it.

Had an awesome dream last night. Now I know what I want. C;

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I guess it great without me around. I have always been me the one initiating and others sitting back. If I stop, others stop. Is it because I have been the only thinking that we are that close. Actually, we aren't.

Starting to let go.

First, I should treasure myself. Before anyone would treasure me.

No point holding onto anyone who doesn't give a shit to you.