Everyone has been so eager to express their thoughts. They fail to be tactful.

Everyone has their "interesting" mindset. You may agree or disagree it but not criticize it. I agree that my mindset is "interesting". It doesn't mean that my best friend has to be the same to be my best friend. So what if they don't? Do you have to repeat again and again? I guess I said too much.

As always, I regretted again. Whenever I confine to anyone, at the end of the day I will regret. No doubt this time round I am as well.

Stay cool kt! Not the time to get emotional!

Exhausted. Just ate my medicine and may caused drowsiness. The doctor mentioned that it was Wei zhang fong and stress. Don't really know the illness is. Plainly don't dare to have anything - the moment I eat I feel as if I will vomit any time. The tricky issue is that I gets hungry easily. :(

Hope I recover real soon.

I found my definition of friendship. Sad to say, number of years known doesn't equivalent to BFF.

Thursday is a resting day at home.

Previously, I mentioned that I am down with stomach flu. Guess I am recovering soon. This funny thing about myself is that I always don't know that I am down with such illness. I remembered that previously I even went to work despite the fact that I am suffering from high fever and diarrhea. This time round even worse. I ate cold stuff, oily chicken rice, egg and mo chi - all these are the no-no for stomach flu patient. This caused me 2 days of stomachache and diarrhea. :(

That's all for today.

Haven been home resting since my last paper.

Now, stomach flu comes into the picture and demand me to stay home. It's torturing me like hell. Worse still, it's my first day of work today. Cant concentrate well and keep dozing off. Set up a bad impression for my supervisor. :C

My plan for this week has to move on, regardless of my health condition. Initially, I thought that I will faint in the train on my way home. Nevertheless, I still get the hang of it and drag my way home. It was stomach ache every once in a while, then headache and lack of energy. Mum suggested for a visit to the clinic. I am damn weak to walk out. Even if I walk out of my house, I resemble a walking corpse. Hopefully stomach flu will go away tml.

It's my sis's graduation ceremony tml!

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I dont want to be the one guessing anymore.
I dont want to be the one who initiate anymore.
I'm tired.

Sick of those excuses.
Sick of those times that I have to make it special for god sake.
If you happen to know, it's because of u.

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Now, I realised that I am not the only one suffering from this kind of problem. Just that the rest of them already accept the fact or has found another awesome friend that appreciate their effort.

Happy for them.

Just woke up with a bitter sweet dream. Not quite sure what was I doing in there but it was the first time having such dream.

Every time I woke up and happen to remember my dreams, I will try to decipher the agenda. Some dreams link to stress, anxiety, anger, sadness (and even cried) and so on. However, it was bittersweet today. Can't really tell. However the first thing that came to my mind was friendship. I have been having friendship problems lately. Really miss those times that I am fully concentrating on my exams. No time to worry and think about them. It's holiday time and also the time where I have lots of time to think. Imagination tends to run wild.

I don't know what to do. It isn't the kind of things u can just ignore and it will simply vanish.no way. Don't feel like talking about it too. Just a waste of my time and makes me like an evil woman cursing and picking on ppl. Others will appear innocent. Will you believe me as well?

In my life, I was seems as a liar ass twice from 2 individuals that totally disappoint me. From then on, i seems to talk with no sense since my words aren't taken into consideration seriously. Trust is the most important between friends. If it doesnt exist, I wouldn't dare to say we are best friend. Just another good friend. As if u care right?

If u have a pea sized brain and said something that I feel that u disregard our friendship, I will forgive you. It just proved that ur EQ is only on a particular level and our friendship is just that only.

If someone went missing, he/she has been once regard as part of our clique. What will you do?

Holiday started off real fun. Everything lines up in order except for last thursday.

Come to think of it, 19 MAY was the most extraordinally day of all. Let me briefly take u through this awesome day.

It was suppose to be a usual pool-fish spa- steamboat day. My dearest friend, Cliff turned it upside down and made me do things that I usually don't. Initally, SL and I thought that he was kinapped by some gigglo out there. It wasn't based on groundless assumption. He was last heard during 4am -> DRUNK -> abandone by taxi uncle half way -> worse is that he was being abandone at those places where gigglo loves. -> His phone was dead. Uncontactable & no one has his relative number and anyone close to him. NO ONE.

Damn worry for him. That area was infested with weird pubs, hotel, suspicious massage outlets and uncles. PLUS it was a sweltering weather out there. Nv in my dreams I will walk under such horrible weather. But I did. Do curse a little for a few seconds for him not being able to take good care of himself.

From douby ghaut to selegie Road then Bencoolen road then killney Road. It was a tour around the busy city.

3 hours of sun tanning. Futile attempt. He wasn't seen anywhere laying on the floor. Left with last resort - Police station! Thank goddness that I have a friend working at Orchard npc. or else I wouldn't be able to check if he is under custody. It's only applicable to his immediate family members. :(

Result : He wasn't under custody and no where to be seen. Only till 5pm, he finally contact SL that he was sleeping at home due to hangover. His phone was dead. Thank goddness. Turned my day upside down - No pool and fish spa for me. :( Plus lots of unhealthy sun tanning.

19 May was supposed to be a meet-up session with Cliff as he will be going back to Canada real soon. Half day gone because of Hangover. Proceed on for Steamboat at gui house. Definitely awesome. Steamboat allows us to bond and chit chat. The second best part of the day was what coming up next - Woodlands waterfront.

4hours of chilly night. Never imagine that I will be able to play card games by the sea. It was so comfortable that gui fell asleep there. Stay up till 3am plus. and it fulfilled Cliff's request for EPIC. Most important part of the day.

It's finally over.

No more of 7 to 12am study plan and sleepless nights before the actual examination. This holiday goona be pack with meet-ups and work.

My little wish for this holiday. It is to be able to meet up all of my friends. Exams had put me away from those relaxing meet-ups and extendable list of places to go. Craves for cakes from K Ki and 1Caramel, Korean food from Chinatown, drinks from those bar with love bands and pool cycling etc etc.

call me out for cake
call me out for drinks
call me out for Chinatown

Be it anything. It's simply awesome to hang out with friends. C;
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Nevertheless, friends can be part of our fairy tales. It might be wrap up with a fact we perceive to be. No doubt it may be the fact.

Conflicts, arguments, bias-ness and affections are some of the factors that contribute to the crack in our friendship.

Initiative, proactive, effort ....
This bonds everyone together. It doesn't have to be a command to activate ur initiative mode. It comes in very naturally. If every effort has to be named, it wouldn't be fun. Might as well grab a robot friend. Isn't it?

Excuses will always be another excuse. No matter how hard you thought of to put yourself in a more comfortable mind set, it will only be another true fact about you. Be it lazy or selfish. Actions speaks louder than words. In fact, it is screaming right at ur pea size brain.

There has been quite a fair bit of things that happened recently. It questions about my faith on friendship. Especially when what I used to believe in is starting to blur and transform into another fact. Twist and turn as it wishes to.

After much thinking, it may be better for me to stay away from the ugly fairytales for a while. Others cant be bothered at all. My friend once mentioned that our years of friendship can be abandon at any time. S/he has unlimited friends everywhere. Who cares about this few of us. Does this fit in your definition of friendship?

Boo!

One more week to go. And that's it. No more exams and 7-12 schedule. In need of a break from all these.

Today's definitely not my day. Mens on my FM paper.:( the day even worse. Can't even sit still to revise and totally gave up. The actual exam isn't as hard as I thought. Disappointing and tiring.

Just hoping to rest.

Despite the fact that I am left with 2 papers, I am already in holiday mood with so many dates upcoming. Totally awaiting it to end real soon. My sis's graduation ceremony, movie date with mum, post exam celebration, cousin's birthday party and lots to mention about. Yippee!!!!