Guess not many understand me.

Let me share a little.

I am those silly ass who is willing to spend time for the sake of everyone at my OWN expenses including time and financially. I am willing to spend hours to upload photos, bake birthday cakes or prepare customised present just to give u guys a surprise. For one customization to be presented nicely in front of u, it took me days to prepare.

Like this time round, I have nv bake a muffin before. To bake one, I made a special trip to the library and several failure attempts. The time and money I pumped into this birthday cake was supposed to be spent on my assignments. But I chose not to. Even my mother was strongly against it, I refused to comply. Just to make the occasion special.

A mere request for someone to upload the damn photos was a hell job. Not to mention that. it was my job for the past 2 years. I seems to be so free loaded. Nothing better to do and upload the photos.

It seems to be impossible to have someone to understand my feeling and situation. Frankly speaking, I used to think that there is someone in mind that will help me. Till today, I am utterly wrong and disappointed, my friend.

If i dont make known my thoughts, my effort seems to be taken for granted for hell times. To make things worse, my itouch play dead game on me. Please wake up, itouch. ;C

In the past, it has never cross my mind that the effort I put in worth it or not. May be I should reconsider. As always I am not a good friend to have.