aww... it has been raining since last night. Thank goddness I don't have to work on such an awesome weather. Else it totally dampen my mood.

Before I slept, I have this weird craving - going for a picnic on a raining weather under a pavilion. One day I am goona try it.

I'm so lost.

Who are the ones and who aren't? I can't differentiate it now. Leave me alone.

I am in the stage of changing - be it environment, friends or personality. I am adapting to the changes around me gradually. So do hope the rest will do as well. stay back and watch.

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It is one of the scene when I'm studying. Coffee, clock, textbooks and occasionally tibits. Jagabee stands the no. 1 place in my heart. BEST tibits ever. Sad to say, I seldom have it - the portion is small and pretty expensive. :C

Just had my FR lecture. Every end of the class my brain seems to be bombared with the theory. This is what lesson should end off ba. Class fills in my brain with juicy knowledge and bitter fact that I need to pratice more. Yeah. Practice more and anticipate the upcoming preliminary exam.

A moment ago, I was writing some CNY cards and as usual. Every year, I realise how bad is my chinese and handwriting. How to improve one's handwriting?

Completed half of my spring cleaning.

The cream of spring cleaning is get to throw away a fair bit of my thrash, Not that I can't throw any within the 365 days of 2010. Frankly speaking, I can't throw my clothes as easily as I could. Unless it is spring cleaning. Like ytd, I threw a big bag of unwanted clothes and mum didn't nag at me! A secret to share - Part of it was piled secretly a few months back.

Came across this on one of the channel U show.
Not sure if I get it correct or not.

When one fall in love, do you love because you need to love her/him, want to be loved or you have to love? Never fall into the last class of love. It shows disrespect to the person you assume that you love and love. Don't laugh. There are such people around us.

Guess not many understand me.

Let me share a little.

I am those silly ass who is willing to spend time for the sake of everyone at my OWN expenses including time and financially. I am willing to spend hours to upload photos, bake birthday cakes or prepare customised present just to give u guys a surprise. For one customization to be presented nicely in front of u, it took me days to prepare.

Like this time round, I have nv bake a muffin before. To bake one, I made a special trip to the library and several failure attempts. The time and money I pumped into this birthday cake was supposed to be spent on my assignments. But I chose not to. Even my mother was strongly against it, I refused to comply. Just to make the occasion special.

A mere request for someone to upload the damn photos was a hell job. Not to mention that. it was my job for the past 2 years. I seems to be so free loaded. Nothing better to do and upload the photos.

It seems to be impossible to have someone to understand my feeling and situation. Frankly speaking, I used to think that there is someone in mind that will help me. Till today, I am utterly wrong and disappointed, my friend.

If i dont make known my thoughts, my effort seems to be taken for granted for hell times. To make things worse, my itouch play dead game on me. Please wake up, itouch. ;C

In the past, it has never cross my mind that the effort I put in worth it or not. May be I should reconsider. As always I am not a good friend to have.

This is the joy of baking. C;

It's amusing to watch.

I bet that it's goona be just another one - down. Trust me.

You aren't going to enjoy the joy of it till the very day you understand what's the underlying meaning. Though it can be hard to explain in layman term.

Totally! I could feel that my head is goona split into two ANY TIME.

Anw, Just realise there wouldn't be another noob like me on earth.

There is this hairband which was kind of too small for me. Whenever I had it on for too long, there will be a pressure on my head as if it is squeezing my brain. Most of the time I wouldn't realise how long I wore it. But for sure that I felt discomfort as if someone squeeze my head. As always, for goddness sake, it will take me a few minutes to realise. Silly me wouldn't suspect it was the hairband again and keep digging on what I had done today resulted in a slight headache.

Should get a suitable hairband soon.

Studied from 8.30 to 6.30pm today. Remember that I mentioned about this FR assignment whereby 30/42 questions has to be completed by this Friday? My class was the last or second last to do so. Check it out with the rest of the classes. My classmate didn't do 30 questions and wasn't reprimanded by him. Thank god. C; left with 7 questions and 2 assignments to deal with. That will be how I am going to spend my wed and thurs.

A tuition class with my cousin this morning.

It was merely my second class with him and I received bad news. My cousin is confused over the different method that he is exposed to. Currently, he has math class in school, private tuition teacher and me. Didn't expect that he will be in such a situation. Initially, I told my aunt (his mum) that it is better of him not to have another math tuition class. Doubt that his mum take in my advise. Wondering if I should stop giving him tuition? The more I taught him, he seems to be more confused. ;C

Like today, I spent 2.5 hours to teach him how to do his homework. Those questions were those that I taught him for the past few classes. It seems that he didn't take it seriously or make an effort to remember. Personally, I went through all these and believe that if he continues to be so. It's merely the waste of my time.

To be a teacher. I guess heavy dosage of passion and patience will be best for me.

Recently, there was alot of thinking going on.

Why am I always the last one to know? Or even why was it the fact that I wasn't informed? And those disturbing issues keep surfacing in front of me and no one seems to believe me.

No one.

Is it because the fact that I was being over sensitive for all these things that had happened? The point that I made an effort to voice out to clarify seems to be redundant and attracted negative treatment. Always the the fact that after I confined to someone, I felt regretted. There was twice I did it and gained the taste of betrayal. It taste awfully.

It doesn't mean that I didn't add "please keep it as a secret." ingredients into our conversation shows that you will be able to telecast to the rest. Because I trust u. That sound kind of distrust to me.

Just some random thoughts. Don't read too much into it. C;

Mentally stressed up. ;C

Made myself study for the past few days consecutively.It is starting to make me wonder how the hell those people out there is able to stick to their chair for hours. Restless me. just cant sit still for more than 2 hours and can't help strolling around my house. My study plan is going to go till I submit my FR assignment. Being task to complete 30 questions out of the 42 questions given. Till now, merely completed half as tasked. Oh gosh. So afraid that I will not be able to complete on time. Looking at the calendar, I am left with 8 more days to go. Argh.

Friday lesson was FR. Even though it is a mere 3 hours lecture, my lecturer simply has this magical touch to impair my thinking process. Speaking of FR, there was an additional lesson for me and guess what. It lies on a Monday night (24 Jan)!!

Monday time table
8.30am-11.30am ME
3.30pm-6.30pm PMKG -Lesson + short quiz & submit assignment 2
7pm - 10pm FR

Oh man. By 6.30pm, kai ting would have been partially impaired. How would I have the energy to attend the night class. Oh gosh. Oh gosh. Oh gosh. Can't imagine what's going to be like on that day. Don't wanna think much about it too.

Aww... pretty clothes made my day. Just completed a transaction for a dress. SO goona wear it for ling's birthday meet up. C;

There is this amazing trend of me. Once I started to shop on this particular colour online, I will subconsciously choose the same colour for the following pieces. There was once I am stuck with navy blue and the now it's nude colour. Goona stop for nude colour. However, nude, navy blue, black and white are some of the common colours. At times, it was intentional. BUT BUT please be reminded kt: "No more nude colour! "

ROAR~! went off to watch drama early in the morning. there goes my morning. argh.

Just dropping by to share my little joy of the day. Cya.

Every week seems to be rather standardised.

It's Monday and I have to do this and that. Same goes to the rest of the days. For every specific day, there is this particular subject that I have to revise. It is not easy to be a full time student as well. An advantage of being a student is that I have to answer to my action. There isn't a need for me to answer to anyone or rather responsible to an entity. Or may be I have been studying alone. That's why I couldn't understand the joy of studying.

It Wednesday again. Study. study. Behave like a full time student means to study 8 hours a day. Aww... it's tiring. ;c Wrote a student plan for tml. Usually, I will follow half as planned on the schedule. Should really instill more determination in me to follow the plan. There is only 4 months to go before the actual exam. 4 months!

Whenever I couldn't find anyone to blame, it simply drives me crazy.

Just like today. ROAR~~

As mentioned earlier, there will be a math tuition for my cousin today. However, by te time I reached his doorstep. There wasn't anyone home! Initially, I thought that my cousins went for swimming lesson. Worse still, I couldn't contact anyone. Mobile phones were turned off. Little did I expect that they merely went to the market with their mum! #$#%@ It was so irresponsible of them for not informing me before hand! Else there wouldn't be a noob carrying a heavy bag walking to and for. How would they understand. Doubt they don't. Walking from my house to my cousin house is quite far. May be a 15 mins walk? One thing for sure is that I don't enjoy it.

It's goona be an one offer thingy. Plus, I usually don't give too many options. Since they didn't make it home at 9 am as arranged, there will be no tuition for today.Next week, the tuition will be set at the same time. If the same incident repeats, I don't know what to do. may be just postpone to the following week at the same timing AGAIN. Afterall, I am just doing a favour for them.

Sunday is here again.

Goona give my cousin math tuition in less than 10 hours time. Hopefully, under my supervision, his math will improve greatly. Hopefully.

Giving tuition reminds of me when I was a kiddo. Unlike my talkative cousin, I am introvert and slow learner. The kind of kids few enjoy teaching. Despite the fact that I was given tuition, my results didn't improve much. In fact, one of the subjects gone worse. That's disheartening to hear for any tuition teacher.

Definitely not goona hear this from my cousin. C;

The thought of CNY reminds me of spring cleaning.

Mum has almost completed hers and sis has already started hers. As for me, I guess it will be pretty fast to complete. From time to time, I have been tidying my stuff and throwing away things I have no usage of. May be I should get kick start near end of jan.

These few days I have been waiting for new launches. I should correct myself. I have been waiting for more launches to spot anything that I like. There will be a launch tonight from Love Bonito - extras from back order. However, I hate to go their web especially at night. It will be lagging and may not be able to get what I like in time. It will be more heart breaking. ;C

At times, it makes me wonder why there are ppl who aren't they claim to be. and there is also another group of ppl who can still live in a world without Facebook.

Without Facebook, I would be so lost contact with the rest of the world. Especially when communication has been so much reduced. The number of people I have contact with is that little. The rest has already been reduced to Hi bye friend.

Argh! I am so wanting to see the photos taken on 31 dec 2010. However, the photos are with someone else. It has been annoying the fact that people don't unload photos after it was taken. If the photos are uploaded after a period of time, it will lose the fun and meaning of uploading. There has been quite a few occasions that someone has to be reminded from time to time to upload. Worse still, my request doesn't seems to work and took weeks for it to come true.

Only till recently, I discovered a magic word from someone and only then he will upload the photos the very next moment. I SWEAR to myself that I will never ask for photos to be uploaded anymore. I myself find it annoying to remind someone from time to time. whats more others.

My stubbornness is still trying hard to control my urge to see the photos. Still trying hard.

May be it is a HE that he don't think that photos uploaded meant no purposes. But I hope that he will take into consideration of others before he ever do anything. Doubt he will ever understand. All he takes is a magic word from someone. Just someone.

This is one of the reason why that I wanted to have a DSLR of my mine. So that I don't have to ask for photos from time to time.

It's Jan.

It's time to get started with a study plan for revision. Prelim will be around end of Feb and early March. However, Jan started off with mens too abruptly. It came in early and messed up my plan of FR. Guess I will feel better tonight. Hopefully.

Simply dont have the mood for everything now.

Brand new year. Happy 2011~!

2010 has been a marvellous year. The core ingredients of 2010 was first time experiences.

I started off 2010 having my first ever examination in SIM that drove me insane. Not to forget, an awesome working experience with my colleagues in SLA.

Oh ya! 2010 was also a year where most of us turned 21st. Quite a few celebration was held and each has it's fun elements. Best of all will be mine! HAHAHAHA! Ultimately surprised by my always-don't-seems-to care sister, awesome celebration by stars (scammed by best actress, lingling) and wonderful maxi dress dinner with the gals!

Follow up next will be the best festive of the year! A traditional xmas celebration with a xmas feast and presents for everyone nad from everyone with stars. even though, the xmas log cake was a failure. I promised to have a better one next year. It goona be a log cake next time round! AND AND also a Malaysia trip on xmas marks the best xmas I ever ever had. Did I FORGET to mention that it was so sweet of pp and xf to make xmas cookies for me. C;

2010 was filled up to the brim of first time experiences with everyone.

Like it was the first time I ever
*played pool with the gals
*used a instax camera (i always love to!)
*had pedicure
*bought my DSLR camera -D5000

Do u seriously wanna me to state everything. Doubt u don't. C; Hooray to 2010. Say Hi to 2011 and looking forward to 2011.

*Updates on my short runaway.

It is awesome and probably the best xmas I ever had.
The trip to Cameron Highlands consist the 26 of us. It would be troublesome and lack of excitement if we drove ourselves. The adults booked a bus which could fit everyone of us. The journey from JB to Cameron highlands took us around 9 hours. Pretty tiring. In between the journey, there are several toilet breaks.

Uploaded quite a fair bit of photos in FB. This time round I