It felt so wrong It felt so right Don't mean I'm in love
tonight
20080331, 3:56 PM

Super boring dae for me~~~
D is working. Initially, i wanna meet him at night. Yet, he is at PY. There isn't any straight bus from there to my house. Hence, we are not meeting tonight. Sadden. Chat with him quite a while but it isn't better than meeting him right. I guess he will be quite busy next few weeks.
Chat with ling and D.
Dont have the mood to go buy 8 Days. i didnt even read through last issue.


Ytd I had a fell and knocked onto a stationary motorbike. I went to Silvercorss. When I was waiting for my turn, I fell asleep. =) I waited for 2 hours. LOL The medication fee is super Ex. 50 bucks for the antibiotic cream and consultation fee. The doctor helped me to do some dressing. The dressing process is painful. When he stick the plaster on my wound, he seems to use some force on it. For now, I can't even wear my slipper. Every step is painful. =[
The best thing is that I dont need to go to work for 2 days.
Tml i still need to visit the zhong yi. The doctor at SilverCross suggest ices to heal my wound. But my mother doesn't want it. Hence, to play safe I have to go for TCM.
Hungry~~~ My mother went out and promise to pack dinner for me. But I guess it will be quite late.

20080329, 3:52 PM

I will always rmb todae. =)

20080326, 7:59 PM

Whenever I am not in a good mood, I will usually blast my ear pierce. That's what I did the whole dae.
Ytd, when we were chatting on the phone. I don't know why I feel like keep on provoking him. I talk in a way that I am heartless. He was concerned abt my health and I gave him cold replies. I appreciate his intention.
Alot of stuff happened to a friend of mine. Sadden. Hope he will be alright after tonight. =)


Things come in pair. ytd is merely an introduction.
They somehow came out with a decision to have lunch at 1pm. I wasn't informed at all. I went for my lunch at 12 with my colleague. looking around in search of them but to no avail. It is impossible that they are late for lunch. Hence, I called D to assure my intuition. To my disappointment, it turned out to be a fact. D thought that I am aware of it.... *Sigh*Let it be.

20080325, 1:16 PM

Today I am transparent to my friends.

Today I finally know my position in their heart. I think I took the same train as A. My friends only take note of him. I thought they were looking at me. How foolish of me. One of my friend didn't even notice my presence. They merely noticed A.
When we were on our way to NCS, I am being left behind. As usual the guys walk ahead of the gals. D followed suit. As for me, I was far behind them. My shoe was torturing me and I couldn't walk as fast as my friends. What about D. She didn't even bother to ask if I am alright and why am i walking so slowly. Not at all! She simply walk away from me and abandon me. Sadden.

In the morning, I lost my mood because of this. I don't even feel like having lunch with them. Argh. There are also some other stuff that occurred today. Unhappy stuff.......

20080324, 10:01 AM

It happened again. Just like last time. Simply don't understand some facts of life. Does it apply to everyone? I am confident that I will not do something like that . Wondering what's on their mind for behaving in that way.

20080323, 7:04 AM

Pris took this photo at Suntec.(if i rmb correctly). It is like a string of beads. But it is like a waterfall. Nice!
I bought a formal pants from Osmose and a pair of heels from Mondo. I was quite tired around evening and simply picked any heels at Mondo. That put an end to my shopping spree. I must learn how to control my pocket or rather my hand. Stopping myself from keying in the Pin number. I just received my pay and there it goes. Within a day I spent all of them. When will I be able to save some money for myself? Ans: I don't know.
I went jogging with Moses in the morning. It is suppose to be a casual jogging but it end up to an endurance exercise. The Sun is giving me a hard time.
Note Next time anyone should start jogging at 7am if u can't endure the Scorching Sun. =)
Simply don't understand some facts. =

20080322, 10:45 AM

Today is Friday again. Good Friday. Everyone don't have to work or go to school. Yipeee!
Later I will be gg out with pris for shopping spree. It been 3weeks since I went for my shopping trip. I have quite a few things that I wanna buy but I am cash tied. Hate this moment. I guess I have to bare with it for 1 to 2 months After my attachment, I will have $1500. Although it isn't a big amount, it is better than nothing.
I worked OT ytd till 7.30. Moses liyong I went to AMK hub to catch a movie-SpiderWick. I don't like the seats at AMK hub.Totally uncomfortable. The movie isn't as nice as I expected.

20080319, 8:26 PM

Headache,no appetite and unsatisfied results occurred at the same time this morning. These days my appetite hasn't been that well. I am quite worrying about my health. But i am lazy to go see the doctor. Wondering wats wrong with me. It been a week i guess.
I am fragile.

20080318, 10:38 PM

Headache! A few hours later, my results will be release. Don't dare to see it. I guess tml then see my results.


Hmm.. I had a horrible day. The account wasn't re-activated and I can't use the Internet. Furthermore, I am not allowed to do my assignment at NCS at normal speed. I had to complete it at the slowest speed which is impossible without the usage of Internet. What else. I don't dare to call the customer service. I afraid that they will find me a nuisance.
As what I heard from my friend who worked in that department. They can actually mute the call while waiting. And they will scold the customer to vent their anger. That's frightening. I remembered last time the customer services ppl called me through my hand phone. I can't hear what they sae as I can't receive reception that well. In results, he kept repeating his sentence many times. I feel sorry about it. I don't dare to call back now.=[ However, I am in need of the user name and password.

20080317, 2:08 PM

Boring day! I prefer to mix around with kids. Not adult. ha!
On 4,5 and 6 April, pt media will be holding chalet once again! Finally, I can go cycling. It been quite some time since I last went for cycling. Yipeee! Cycling Cycling I been waiting for this day.
The first time I met Sharon is under the situation where I was wounded. On that day, I was learning how to cycle. I fell down as I am still unable to control the bicycle. The first time I saw Sharon is in my worse situation. First time I ever met someone in that condition. =]
Looking forward everyday.

20080316, 1:13 PM


Today I merely work for 41/2 hours. I even travelled all the way to TM. Of all the shopping center, I despise gg to TM to work. TM usually hold 2 workshops. And I wil only need to work for around 4 hours. I find it a waste of my time. I wanna earn money but I dont wanna earn that small amount.

There is a problem with the employee arrangement. They never put themselves in my shoe. The distance and time I take to travel is unreasonable. Why do they have the cheek to ask someone who live at Woodlands to travel all the way to TM. Sigh* I am waiting for some one's mgs to inform me of the time to work tml. I hope that I will not work work for 4 hours tml. I will swear to myself that I will not work for that workshop.

I am bored to death. When I was working, I found a gal whom talk a lot today. I keep disturbing her. It is quite fun.


20080315, 11:42 AM

Yipee! Tml I will be working at pt media. More money! More money! instead of the pathetic amount of allowance for my attachment. I am curious abt the situation that my sister involved. I been working for 1 year and nothing much happen. I shall see. Most importantly, tml is 6 bucks per hour.More worth it if I work. =)
I had tea break with Yiyong and moses. Our tea break last around 1 hour. It is from 4.30 to 5.20. That means I only went back to my desk to pack up my things and off I go. I heard alot from them. The daily fact is cruel. I learn some base on their experience. Moses will be leaving this end of March. Working in office looks horrible as you never know what they will do next. I don't really hope to work in the office. I rather something outdoor. I just want it to be simple and pure. No more backstabbers, 2 head snake or wat so ever. I had enough. I am not the only special ppl in this world afterall. I learnt this sentence when I am watching Naruto.
I understand why Naruto is more popular than Bleach. Naruto is comprises of emotions, battles and facts of life. As for Bleach, it is mainly battling.
One of things I learnt: I am not the only Special person. People are not born to be Smart. We can strive to be strong if our will persist.

20080314, 1:12 PM

Tml will be Friday. This is the second week of my attachment.
I am still doing the UM. I left with 3 more modules to complete. I guess tml I am able to complete it within one day. This week is the worse week of my life.
Tuesday: worse experience(**secret**)
Wednesday: super boring
Thursday: super boring+ being ignored+heels spoilt
Friday: ???
I don't have any good feeling abt tml. I don't really like Friday. =( I wanna know the Art of interaction. How does it go about? This question been bothering me even more when I start my attachment.
I have pictures to upload for my entries. But it is in my lappy. Sat someone will be coming over to my house to fix my wireless. he!

20080313, 2:02 PM

Today is a disaster.
The atmosphere is too peaceful. 2 of my colleague didn't work today. And left with the other 2 who doesn't talk with each other at all. It is damn boring and sleepy.
Without him around, my day is like hell. If he work, at least I can listen to their funny conversation. both of my colleague who came to work today doesn't talk to each other most of the time. I guess the problem lies in the language they speaks in. One speaks English and another speaks Chinese.
The horoscope state that wed and thurs is my day. It doesn't seems to be. I shall see tml! I guess it is still the same. BORING! tml D is leaving at 12. That means left with me and the rest of guys. Argh! I have nothing to talk to them. My lunch is goona be real short. Sadden.
Tml a new staff will be joining me. I am not sure is a guy or gal. Hope is a gal then. =]

20080312, 2:42 PM


Ahhhh!!! something horrible happened to me. Disgusted by this incident.
After this incident, I couldn't concentrate to do my work. However, I still managed to finish them. They say I do too fast. They suggest me that u do little or do alot the pay still the saem. So do slowly. But the problem lies that if I do slowly I will fell asleep. And the work is so boring. OMG! Tml I think I will find things to do myself. May be look at everything I did again.
Finally, my sister is working. I intro her the job at pt media. Better than not working. Work at pt media is quite good as compared to other jobs I been to. Easy money!

20080311, 1:47 PM

I am still doing UM. I heard from my project manager that someone will join me tml. Iwasn't sure who will it be. Even he did, we will be doing different track. I guess today I leave working desk very punctual toady. =] Feel a bit bad. Tml don't leave so early then. ha ha. I become hungry when it is near lunch break and gg home time.
There isn't anything happen today.

20080310, 9:48 AM

I had nothing to do after I was forced to off the comp.
Tml is Monday again. There will new issue of 8 days. I don't hope that the cover page is any of the ah jie in mediacrop. It is getting bored if they are. We see them everyday on TV. What's more we have to see them more often on magazine. May be JAY CHOU! It will be great. =P
Recently, I am crazy over anime. I still have some episode left for death note. I still couldn't find the last few episode. There are. But in french language etc.
I wanna correct myself something regarding ytd post. I have around 240 plus episode to catch up. Just now when I was watching episode 19. It is super touching. I cried abit. I seldom cry when watching shows. Like Secret and I am not stupid 2. I didn't cry. But this time I did.

20080309, 8:44 AM


Look at the time. I did nothing and my sat is goona come to an end. Currently, I am watching Naruto. It may be crazy as I have hundred plus episodes to catch up.
I am still struggling if I should work during the weekends. I afraid the I will be asked to go back to work on Sat. But I don't think they will as we are just IA. Furthermore, we work scoop wouldn't have the opportunity to do so. I don't wanna let my boss lost trust in me if I didn't turn up for work.
This month I am not goona do any shopping spree, watch movie and spent around 20 bucks on a meal. I need to save my pathetic account. I saw the depth of it. It is the aftermath of shopping spree. Nothing else. I did shopping spree b4 CNY and shopping spree b4 attachment. I did earn some income. But it is merely enough to mend some holes. No differences at all. Hence, this 3 months of allowance will definitely save me. These days I am using my mum 's money. My sister gave me some cash. last few shopping spree were paid by me. She spent 10 bucks for each outing I had with her. I guess this is the best part of having a elder sister.
My friend is Sick today. he can't make it help me to fix my comp. Hope he do it tml. I simply hope that my desktop to recover soon.
Tml will be Sun! What should I do? There is nothing much i guess. I can watch tv in the morning. Read magazines or watch Naruto in the afternoon. Watch TV again at night. That's my Sunday. Deal! he!
I should print out some photos that I took at the Airport for my grandma, anutie and myself.=] May be next week. My father is goona give me allowance. Yipeeee! Actually, he should be giving it to be this week. But he didn't This week is hard on me.
I didn't talk when I was working last week. This shouldn't be the way. I should communicate with ppl. That's my weakest part. I tend to keep to myself when I am in a new environment. Unless someone keep talking to me, just like someone.
A bit of granny story here...
I first met chatty, IC and Jackson at United Square. We(IC chatty me) worked tgt for 10 days i guess.Or a week? First few days I shut my gap and didn't talk to them. They have each other to entertain. i am all alone as Cashier.I rmb Chatty keep asking me questions. I keep answering. May be Idid ask some questions. Just a rough image of what is happening during the book fair.I only start talking to them when 007 came to work with me. 007 was there to replace Chatty.
Most interesting part: I gave IC a loud BOO from behind! He screamed!!! hahahaa I thought a guy like IC will not have much reaction by this. This is fun.
Most tiring part: Being a cashier is the worse job I ever had. Purely stick my butt to the chair and collect the money. Furthermore, the business there isn't that good. I can fell asleep anytime. IC and United Square(the guy in charge of us) admitted too.
Best part: 007 came to work with me. At least, I am not alone. With 007 and IC, I dont have to worry that I will fell asleep. They will do something like talking back at each other. With them around, the most important thing I need is POPCORN. ha ha
Funny stuff: I didn't know that Jackson is Jason brother at first. Thought that he is Jason friend. I mixed up who is younger brother or elder brother. Even today, I am not very sure who is the elder brother. Chatty did mention to me. I forgot abt it.

20080307, 11:35 PM


It is 11.35pm now! I just conquered the Bleach online manga. It is getting interesting. Fighting more brutally and crazily.
Awaits the anime to be publish. =]


My work load for today is to do the user manual for *******. Managed to finish everything except for one portion of it. I have problems accessing it. Hence, i have to wait till next Monday. I guess next Monday I can hand up that UM. The things that I am goona type in the UM is repeating. I did it till I go blur. I wonder what will I do after this project is over. This project seems to be completing soon. Transfer me to another department?!? I hope not. I am rather used to the current environment. My colleagues are quite easy gg. One of them looks a bit like HQ sister.
We reached office on time. However, the office which YX asigned to is souless. The lights are off. Normally, we will just go to our desk. But not today! Beside the door, there is a mini security alarm. I guess every morning the staff in that office have to key in a password in order to have a tranquil office environment. YX nad I were stuck at the door. We can enter the room but we cant simply leave the alarm keep gg on. The mini alarm was triggered when we tried to go into the room. If we stay out of the room, the alarm noise stopped. Yet, YX tried to key in any password. But failed. After which, another alarm triggered. OMG! That room is protected with 3 security device.
I saw a wall....


Things is getting interesting. I gt stuff to do during my attachment. =]
Purely doing user manual. I had the opportunity to attend meeting with them. Through this meeting, I learnt how they work out the project. Even though, there are some things I wasn't quite sure of. Currently, the project is gg to be in the deployment stage. They goona train end users soon. Hence, they are rushing out the user manual. I did 3 small parts and I don't think that it is good. LY says that I lack of something but roughly the thing is there. Sian. I guess tml I simply add the overview to those 3 documents and put it into the W drive. Let the ones who did this portion of programming to fix it. They definitely edit what I did. I shall move on and do another portion of UM.
I start to love this attachment.
Everyone seems to be busy. At times, they will walk around and chit chat. That's office life. Today I met 4 more colleagues. One is Collin and another erm forget his name le. But when I first saw him. He reminds me of socky's bf. Don't know why. he he. As for the other 2 colleagues, they are kuan yew and forgot her name! My brain always remember the first person name and forgot the second person's name or may be subsequent ones. I met them during the meeting. Kuan yew is the one who conduct the meeting.He has the same name as one of my poly friend.
Every morning, my peers and I will wait for one another to walk to NCS tgt. I wanna reach office earlier as I find that my working speed is too slow. I merely did 3 tasks took me the whole day. Or I am asking too much from myself. How long does others need if they were to do it? I guess tml if 2 of the always late ppl late. I will go to work myself. I really have stuff to do and hope to finish it the faster the better. Of course do it efficiently and effectively.
I am Sick. The reason is unique. On Wednesday, I was transferred from CPF-ITR to CASE (unsure of it). I need the signature of the manager so that my access card can be used. But my manager isn't in the office on that day. That means I can't go to the toilet and refill my water bottle. Li Yong did mention if I wanna go toilet can tell him. But! I find it weird to inform a guy that I wanna go toilet and can you help me to open the door. Simply find it hard to say it. Hence, I survived with the 500ml water for 9 hrs. End up having sore throat. Working in the office is making my lips real dry and thirsty easily.

20080305, 8:57 PM

How I wish I could also hold this board and scream "Jay!Jay!" Muack!!
Yesterday, I was damn sick that I don't have the mood to update my blog.
Recently, my blog became rather boring. The current blog skin isn't my style. I simply can't find any blog skin that fits me. This skin is TEMPORARY. Currently, I am having my attachment. By the time I return home, I should be enjoying the programmes. :] Even my wireless isnt done yet.
What's more. Once, my comp is fixed. I goona find all the songs I used to have. I can't update my ipod nano. poor me! I don't have any songs now. Once i update it, everything will be gone. By then, my nano will be full of Jay's songs. The only artist that I had his CDs. There are lots of stuff I goona feed my CPU. It is too clean for my to do anything.
Things to do after my attachment: more songs! update blog with photos! earn $$$!

20080304, 2:58 PM


My very first day of attachment is horrible. I spent the whole morning waiting. First, I wait for my turn to take IC photo for my pass. Followed on, I wait for the admin staff to bring us to meet our OIC. She went to do her stuff for quite some time. When we finally met our OIC, she asked us to wait for her at a meeting room. After all these waiting, she finally came and started the briefing. After everything end, it is time for lunch.
During our lunch break, we went to the game room. There are arcade, pool, board games and poker cards. yx, ronald and zj played a few games of pool.
After lunch, incharge brought me to the room where we work. It is at block B. Before we reached, she tell us to be prepared that the room will be alot of ppl. Indeed. The room has so many ppl that we dont have space to sit. Luckily, one of the staff was on leave. Else we need to squeeze. Furthermore, 2 person have to share one computer. The document we were reading is 40++ pages. It is making me sleepy man.
I shall end here. Don't wanna sae anything else abt my boring attachment.

20080303, 2:52 PM


I couldn't find any ideal bag. Those cheap ones are too formal. I can't imagine myself with that bag. In the end, I didn't buy any bag. So do HJ.

But! I bought my very first cosmetic today.*applause* It is the moisturising lip gloss. I need to put on at least something on my face as a form of respect. Hence, as a OL is so man fan. I bought another semi-formal top for myself. Now I have 3 semi-formal and 1 formal top. Tml I will be gg shopping again with Diana. I guess I have to get another bottom. There is a huge hole in my pocket. Wonder when will I be able to mend it. *Sob*

Through these days of shopping, I discovered alot of things. If anyone wanna look for formal clothes, I would suggest AMK hub or bugis junction.

Ytd I came across a D.I.Y shop where I can diy anything. A key chain, photo frame and hand phone strap. They sell individual figures, alphabet anything needed for the diy. I find it meaningful and fun. But it is rather ex. May be i can try to make one for my friends.

Tml is my FIRST day of attachment. omg. kinda nervous. Don't feel like sleeping. But tml I need to wake up at 7am.Usually, I will be watching programme shows.

20080302, 3:48 PM

Tired! I have been shopping from 12pm to 9pm. 9 hours! And spent 90 bucks. I bought a pair of shoe, a pant and a semi-formal top. Still couldn't find a bag suitable for my attachment. Tml going out with HJ to search for a bag. =P

We start our shopping spree at amk hub. Thinking that we will be able to buy any. But I can sae it fat hope. I couldn't find any that i really like. But i find those formal clothes from Littlematchgirl is quite nice. it is expensive! After having our lunch at Mos burger, we move on to orchard's far east plaza. I spotted the semi-formal top and was wandering if I wanna buy. We shopped around level 3 and basement 1. None of us buy anything initially. Around evening we were tired and we decided to buy whatever we think is suitable. End up, I bought the most number of items. HQ didn't buy anything. She is too skinny. It's rather difficult to buy anything. All of us couldn't find any ideal bag at orchard. We moved on to MS and had dinner.

Shocking factor: HQ vomited. She said that isn't feeling that well since 2pm. Around 8pm, she vomited at the toilet. Thinking that she will not vomit again, we decided to go home. She look fragile. From suntec to the mrt station is a long way man! When we were finally out of city hall plaza, HQ vomited. We were some how dont noe what to do. There is no toilet and there is a long way to reach her house. She requested to take taxi home instead of mrt. We brought her to the taxi stand afraid that we will faint or what so ever.

20080301, 3:14 PM

What a unique day. 29th Feb 2008. The next time of 29th Feb will be 2012. wah! Wonder what will I be doing on that day.
met up with pris for shopping! She was late once again. I admit that I don't really like to wait for ppl. If someone were to be late for around an hour and I am alone, I will explore. if there is someone accompanying me, I guess i will not explore. I will suggest my companion and I to start the shopping while waiting for the latecomer. Followed on, we went to far east to shop for presents first.It is rather troublesome to buy presents for them. I don't really know what they want. What I suggest isn't of their likings. hence, it takes some time. Pris made all the decisions. Some times, we should make some changes to our life. We can't simply follow what we been doing everyday. Else it would be quite boring! Hope the gals like the presents but not a disappointment.
I intend to shop for semi-formal clothes. But far east doesn't seems to be suitable place to hunt for it. what a disappointment. In the end, I merely bought a t-shirts. Nevertheless, some other stuff caught my attention. A bag $29.90, a dress $40++, pump $80++ and fancy t-shirts $20++ each. These are the items i fell in love with. However, I am currently lack $$$. My money are only able for me to buy some semi-formal apparel, shoe and bag. Too poor to think of anything else.
Before we left orchard, we went to Kinokuniya. Pris is looking for comics. Each Bleach comic book cost $9.90. Currently, there are 32 books on sales without counting those movie comic book and some other stuff. It cost me a bomb man if i buy it. Forget it! There is one section of Kinokuniya which place books that featured drama shows or movie. I saw KUNG FU DUNK PHOTO ALBUM. There are 2 version. One of is really photo album and the other one is printed photo album. OMG! I wanna bring it home. but the photo album with REAL photos is $50++. *sob* *sob* It is so expensive! No matter how I save my money. I will nv be able to buy it.
Tml I will be meeting HJ HQ WE for shopping again! I noticed that Wisma has a few shops that sell semi-formal. May be tml I can try my luck at those shops. hope i will be able to buy any. Before meeting them at amk, I will be meeting Pris yl and jy in the morning to pass them presents and have breakfast tgt.