How should I describle my feelings now?

Completely lost.

What do I really want?

ytd was really a hectic day. How I wish everyday would be like that as well. :)

As the date become nearer, more and more excited over it. :)

Within this period, I have been doing well - controlling my tibits intake, NO shopping and less meetups. Everything push back after my tw trip. These 3 items are already EXTREMELY torturing. Feeling extremely bored and I was hoping to grab a packet of tibit.

Just had my lens changed and was soooo lazy to collect it.

Just received a news for a steamboat tml! eggcitied. it has been long time since I last had steamboat at my friend's house. Thinking ever since last year june? HEHE. yipee yea yea yipee yipee yea

It's just another day.

Everyone's working and will only be available at night. So i will have do something in the day. :( There's nothing much I can do as well other than finding jobs. yea find jobs.

Thinking what should I bring for my tw trip. wet tissue, plasters, umbrella ... what else?

walked around bugis street and have a look what's available out there. Didnt shop at all. Plan to do it at TW. hahahaha. 7 days to go! : D

Something awesome is share with you guys!

Happen to book the same timing of flight to tw with my sec friend, JY! the percentage for this to happen is like 0.0001% and it happened. Hopefully managed to see her at airport. :) so eggcited.

A must to do for my tw trip.
1. visit Hello kitty restaurant - happen to be around the hotel I am staying in 16 mins by train and walk. :) pester my cousin to bring me there. Hopefully she rmb to make a reservation. :( else I have to takeaway. By all means i MUST go.

2. visit their 7-11 to see those idol customized tibits. - hopefully to grab some JAY CHOU's

3. hopefully get to shop lots! - I dont really think it is possiblle. My travelling companion arent those shopaholic type.

4. grab some tai yang bing! hee! my favourite.

Nothing else. :) kind of simple.

4th day of searching for job. No news yet.

Been sending resumes to a handful of firms and really hope that anyone of them spend a fraction of their time on my resume. Still, I will continue to send more.
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I have a little red book. Have this strong feeling that I should write something on it. But seriously dont know what to write on it. Hmmm... thinking should I bring it along for my tw trip and record it down? But I am not those kind of person who will do so. would like to be those who posseses a personalized diary book.

But always gave up after writing a few page.

7 days later will be my tw trip. Wasnt looking forward it much. Most of the time I will be doing sight seeing and the reson I go is to acc my mum. No doubt it is a good thing but still feel wasted. Contradicting. :(

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It's already the end of May. Thinking what am I gg to do for the next 7 months.
1. Get a full time job- Finace accounts related
2. get mum a present she want with my first pay
3. get a saving insurance
4. get to shop monthly : p
5. hopefully pass all my papers and sign up for further education
6. change a new phone - look at my 2G phone. Chuii
7. get a proper working bag

seems that everything relates to money? No life man. Even for my hobby also needs the helping hand of $$.

there's some other things I also need to do and dont need $$.

8. Picnic, badminton, jogging, chitchat, rot at friends' house, play games, potluck and ...

cant think of anything.

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Dont think u know me well. I do care about you because I take u as my friend. Dont decipher too much into my words and actions.

If I am, I will reciprocate. Else shut your gap and MYOB. Bromance is you guys's business, not mind. :)